So today was supposed to be my physical review appointment for Disability, but they rescheduled it to next Friday. I guess it really doesn’t matter, since the pain is going to be the same next week as it is this week. I’m on week three with no meds now, and while I did take some leftover meds from Richard’s surgery last week, they caused some major constipation and it just wasn’t worth it. I also ordered some “legal bud” from a site online, and $70 later can tell you it isn’t worth it — I haven’t had any pain relief, and frankly the herbs were harsh and mainly just made me cough. I’m thinking about seeing if I can use them as teas, or something, but that is going to take some research first. We’ll see how that goes. I finally was able to find someone who might be able to help me out with the herbs I really need — we’ll see how that goes, as well.
For now I try to get a little bit done each day – wash dishes or do laundry or dust — not all on the same day. That is what is so discouraging….. only being able to do one thing a day. I’ve been trying to get rid of my A-personality, because it makes me feel guilty for “not doing anything” or “not getting enough done”, and it is slowly going away, but vestiges of it are still there and I won’t be sad when it is completely gone. Of course, this means dishes in the sink are passed over, and the laundry pile is ignored, and the dust on the furniture gets a bit much at times, but it is the obsessiveness that caused a lot of my mental issues, which in turn acerbated the physical issues, and I’ve just got to let it all go.
In other news, my Orc Hunter is now level 80 in World of Warcraft, and I have almost completed the Exploration Achievement! Next I’ll be working on my Mage to get her up and causing mischief and mayhem in the lives of her enemies.
