So for that last several weeks I’ve been in a relapse and it has been like starting over, but I think that perhaps Doc has come up with a good med regimen for me. We shall see. I’m on day 2 no methadone. That is on my own – not through her. I need to get off of this stuff – it is bad enough I have to be on the cymbalta and prozax.
I got the things I have made so far up on E-Bay. Here is the link if you are interested:
http://shop.ebay.com/merchant/merenwentari_W0QQ_nkwZQQ_armrsZ1QQ_fromZQQ_mdoZ
I cut out the main pattern from the pattern paper today for the tunic/skirt/pant/scarf set. Right now I have sizes 20W – 28W, but after I get done cutting the individual patterns on pattern paper and then get at least one set (20W) done, then I”ll go and get the smaller patterns and do the same thing. This set can be made out of so many different fabrics, and the cut it pretty universal, so I imagine once I get started it will go well. I’m also going to get a Cape pattern that I like and see about selling those in different fabrics, as well. One never knows what will go well.
Richard went home from a week’s vacation here at the house. He was awesome to have home, and seemed to totally understand the disabilities that have come to have to live with. I am so blessed to have him and Robert in my life.
I’ve finally let go of HAVING to stay in this house. As time has gone on and I’ve been going through my recovery and in trying to find a new path for myself, I find that I am not going to be able to fulfill the optimistic dream I had for myself when I first fell out in February. That is alright, though — I”ll do what I can and get through it all and as long as I know that I am doing my BEST then I am not going to beat myself up (which I am SO very good at). I’m not looking forward to moving down to Fort Pierce, but at least we will be together, and I’ll make it a point to come up and visit Mom and Dad at least once a month. Perhaps in the future they will follow us wherever it is that we end up going. I sure hope that is the case.
That is it for today.
